Music is my first love.

Our bond is going on longer than since I came to life in this body, so it’s probably the most natural thing for us to get involved. We had a playful relationship over the largest part of my childhood. In my early adult lifetime, I became more interested and developed a more eclectic taste. 

But it started to become more serious a few years ago when Matze and I started the podcast. Matze didn’t own a laptop and since I was the techier person anyway I became the producer, and learned the basic techniques for podcast production on Garageband. It was a lot of trial and error, learning by doing and just seeing what works and what doesn’t. I had brought Logic Pro X beforehand (shortly after the diagnosis tbp) because I always thought that because I love music so much it’d be super easy to make great songs myself. Turns out I was wrong. And after watching a few tutorials I quietly gave up somewhat frustrated. 

On the podcast, we played our favorite songs related to a certain motto we’d chose at the end of the previous episode. Matze as a long-time DJ was so knowledgeable and our discussions on music as listeners and DJs taught me a lot about music in general.

When Matze picked the motto “legendary producers” I remembered my first production attempts Logic. And they weren’t very good, so these producers could do something really well that I couldn’t but really really wanted to do well too. Through our sessions I become kinda obsessed with learning who’d actually help make the song that I loved. In most hip hop tracks the producers bring in their tags, so I’d learn to differentiate the tags and started following the producers on Instagram.

Still I didn’t go back to Logic until I met Ömer who used to be a rapper. We talked about beat making and got all excited then sat behind my DAW and my MIDI keyboard without knowing what to do next. I promised to make a beat for him, once I figure out how to use Logic. And what can I say? Sh*t is complex and I’m doing my best at leaning how to produce cool things every day. Let’s see where it goes. 

So here’s where I’m currently at.